It's days like this where I truly believe that looking back and remembering where we've been and what we've gone through is really important and therapeutic. So what do I mean by 'days like this'? Well, it was 2 years ago today that I miscarried. I will never forget that day.
I was so excited the day that I found out that I was pregnant. I think that is a moment that is truly special when you see those two pink lines. Well just a short 9 weeks later, I lost the baby. I know some may say that 9 weeks just isn't that long and the baby wasn't that far along but losing that child rocked my world. I went from picking out baby names to realizing that I didn't know when I would become a mother. My plans all got completely rearranged.
I leaned a lot on the Lord that day and through the following days and weeks. And you know what? I became a lot stronger because of what I went through. I learned to have faith and trust in the Lord's timing. I came to know that I would be a mother when I was supposed to. I was really lucky and blessed to get pregnant so quickly after miscarrying and that helped ease the pain.
Now two years later, looking back at what I went through, I have realized how powerful and magnificent the Lord's timing is. I have a stronger sympathy and empathy for those who have gone through the pain of losing a pregnancy. And my life has been so greatly blessed in these past two years. We have been blessed financially. We have been blessed spiritually. Our families have been looked after. I had the privilege to give birth to a beautiful, healthy baby girl who is such an amazing, wonderful child. She is such a strong spirit and has made Shawn and I better people. I need her in my life and it is because of the Lord's plan and timing that I have my sweet little girl with me today. I love her and my Savior so much and I'm grateful for the trials that we go through. I love being able to come out on top and come out of them a better and stronger person than I was going in. I hope to always remember where I have been and what I have gone through. I never want to forget the special lessons that I learned. I want them to make me stronger for myself, my husband and my children.
4 comments:
Thank you for your testimony! You are amazing!
Really sweet post. Touched my heart. :-)
Isn't it amazing how He works. He puts us through some of the most painful things, only to teach us some of the greatest lessons. I do not know the pain of losing a child, or a pregnancy, but I know the pain of infertility. I'm so sorry for your loss, but you have always had a strong testimony and it is no surprise to me that you have come through this with such grace!
Thanks for sharing this. I agree that it is important to remember the progress we have made through our trials. That last pic of Addie is especially adorable! :)
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