Life...

Here I am watching my little one sleep in her bouncer. I feel like the luckiest girl alive. I have the most wonderful little daughter who is just an angel. She is now sleeping so well at night and during the day. A typical day goes like this. Wake up between 7 and 8, nap from 9/9:30 to 11/11:30. Up til about 2:30 with one catnap sometime in between. Sleeps from 2:30 to about 5. Then bed at 8:30/9 with one or two catnaps in between. Lately she has been sleeping from 9 until 7 the next morning without waking up but sometimes she gets up once around 4:30 or 5 am. I just feel so lucky! She still has off days (who doesn't?) but those days are still really good! She is now starting to be so alert and giggly while she is awake. It tires her out quickly but it's so much fun! The other day she looked at me and I could tell that she knew exactly who I was. I couldn't help but cry. I could see the love in her eyes and she was REALLY looking at me because of who I am. That has been one of the most special things that has happened with Addie since she was born.

Then there is Shawn. He works so hard for me and the bug. Everyday he is up at 6:30 so that he can be up to work in South Jordan by 8. He isn't home until about 5:30 and then he is more than willing to help me out around the house and with the baby. I couldn't ask for a better husband. He is always seeing what he can do to help me out and never thinks of himself. He'll even come home and make ME dinner. How sweet is that? And then to see him with our daughter. It's so adorable and he is such a good father. Adalyn loves him so much. It's easy to tell because as soon as he gets home and picks her up she coos and smiles and talks to him. He is an incredible man. I love him so much more than I will ever be able to express.

Next is me. I am recovering so well. My legs are pretty much back to normal. I can now do everything. Stairs are no big deal, I'm finally driving and i'm even able to bend down and push myself back up. I still have some tingling in my left leg which can drive me crazy but even that is going away. Yes, there is the possibility that this will happen again the next time I give birth. Because of that I will not be able to have an epidural next time so that I can feel my legs while giving birth. Then I will be able to tell if my legs are going numb or if they are hurting and I can decrease the chances of damaging my nerves again. I am terrified but it's not like I can't have more children. And I know that I will be able to heal should this occur again.

I wanted to write this post to remind me that I need to keep the positives in my mind and not dwell on the negatives. I need to not get frustrated when Addie takes a little longer to go to bed or when she has one day where she gets up twice in the night instead of once. I need to be more understanding when Shawn has to work a little late. I need to be more patient with myself when my legs don't quite have the strength that they used to. I need to be a better person and realize how lucky I am and how much I truly have. I love my little family and I never want to forget that.